Chapter 10

Fahad: ee walla im honest.. Yalla my turn... " who was..."

Then he stopped for a minute, "nevermind"

Me: laa goul yallaaaa

Fahad: laa laa bs

Me: fahaadd trak mat3rfnii, ana ma7b lma a7d ygouli chthyy then he stops, fa a77sanlk tgouli,, 9bryy lah 7doud ha

Fahad: laaa bs mabi agoul.. bs2al another question, "did u ever have a boyfriend?

Me: no 

i lied. i couldnt tell him. i was ashamed to do so. Then he'll ask me why & i'll have to talk about it & bring it up again. It brings me to tears whenever i talk about it. How i truly loved him, even if it was 3 years ago, i still cant forget him.. The way it ended was just too disappointing. I really had hope in him, that he was the one for me. My one & only. My hero. My everything, bs sawa swatah & i had to stop it right there. I cant lie & say that i dont miss him sometimes. Or how its perfectly normal to see him again.. But what he did was something that i couldnt forgive him on..

Fahad: MNEERAA (he started shaking me)

Me: h, hallaaa shfeeekk

Fahad: waynn r7tyy, tmaytt anadeech w matrdeen

I tear rolled down my cheek & msa7ta quicklyy.. thank god its darkk..

Fahad: yallaa dourchh

Tmayna ns2al ba3a'6 wyedd as2la lain ma al3noud 9ari5att, "bs ana t3btt abi ardd magdrr amshyy b3dd"... She saww a security guy & stopped him "e9er twa9ilna el bayt please, t3bna". Bs tmayna n6al3haa :| habla w rabii.. "yalla t3alww"

Dshayna w few minutes w chan nw9l el baytt....

Dshayna wela mama w baba w 3ami a7mdd g3deenn "ha shb3taww? stanastaw?".. we answered "ee wallaa". Al3noud then started talking about howw nice el durraa is w halon.. She then went out and said: "Allay 9ijj ybeela n6b fl brchaa noww"

Mama: ee 6baww ma3alayhh

Al3noud: 9ijj? Y3ni 3adii?

Mama: ee 9kww el curtains w e7na a9lan benam b3d shwy fa 3adi bs ha latswoon ez3aaj..

She got so happy she went & kissed my mom and went to changee.. i wore my shorts w a jersey shirt & so did Fahad and we jumped in the pool..  IT WAS COLD.. wayyedd bs shwy w nt3awad...

Al3noud: mneera yeebay el sfeena hathy w 5al ng3d 3layha..

I brought it w g3dna 3lyha chan manchof Fahad..

"Fahad,, fahadd waynkk"

BOOOOOO

Al3noud: AHHH (she fell in the pool) ya kalbb ya 7yawaan

We started laughing 3lyha w 3la shaklha..

Al3noud: lw knt maska my phone chan thb7tkk..

Tmayna nsolf shwy w 8ararna ndshh shwy..

Al3noud: t3alay mneera abech b salfa

Me: okaay 

noo noo mabee ahida brouu7aa

Me: fahad e7na bndoor shwy 3al beach tbeni f salfa w ard.. hak watch tv

Fahad: okai bs latba3doon

Me: inshalla

I went to her and thats when i knew about her boyfriend

Al3noud: Manoor i know what im about to say is gonna shock you bs i want to tell you. I have a boyfriend his name is Jaraa7, older than me by two years, fl jaysh & im insanely in love with him.. before you judge me listen to me.. Klsh maknt min halnou3, boyfriend & stuff bs he was different, he's madly in love with me & so am i. we fight, A LOT but at the end of the day we love each other, he's gonna marry me one day, he promised & i trusted him.. so yeah... not talk & critisize & all that..

Me: allaayy cutee al3noudd :') i wont critisize, you know whats right & whats not & if you think you guys can finished on then stay with you.. allah ywafgkm 7bebty *hug*

Al3noud: ameen ya rabb

She then started telling me kl swalfhm.. theyve beeen together for 3 yearss.. Thats so cute :') she told me about lma he followed her to Turkia & all the other stuff. i was glad she trusted me..

Al3noud: manoor ana batm bara shwy aklma okai.. enty lahi fahod shwy

Me: mashee

i went in 6b3an w el ebtisama mitraaynn..

Me: fah...

Chan achofah raggd.. He has the cutest "sleeping face" i swear. His hands 3la ba3ath w under his cheeks, he looked so peaceful walla.. I took the blanket w '36ayta shwyy.. 

i found it a chance, since no one was awake, to write in my diary.. i got it & started writing..

Dear Diary,

Im in durra right now,, Al3noud's talking on the phone outside & Fahad's asleep, he has the cutest sleeping face, so angelic. God i think im falling for him. Seriously. Like, i havent felt this way for a long time. I dont know whether this feeling is right or not but all i know is that i like this feeling & i dont want it to go.. He makes me feel so special , so alive. I want to be wherever he is, i WANT to stay next to him , i wanna talk to him, go out with him. Do everything with him.. i want too..

I was just about to finish when he opened his eyes & stared at the blanket

Me: umm.. chftk ragid glt a'3a6eek..

Fahad: laa ka gmtt mshkoooraaa.. w he wwent w washed his face w g3ad e6al3 tv..

I sat next to him... "Fahad"

Fahad: amrayyy

Me: shnww knt tbe ts2lnii msa3a.. walla mani gadra ansi abi a3arff

Fahad: mabagolch

Me: mabaklmk tra

Fahad: still mabagolch

Me: okaaiiii

Fahad: abe shay aklah, fe shay?

i ignored w watched tv 

Fahad: haayy aklmchh anaa

I ignored. 

Fahad: ha chthy 3yaal mashee

He stood infront of me bs i took the iPad w r7t 3al sofa w g3dt al3ab.. he came w sat next to me.. w la9ig feeni kl shwy edzni w ana a5sarr.. i moved w he followed me.. w started touching the screen,, he's such a kid walla.. i wanna laugh so badd bs laa aba7asisa b thanb shwy w eni m3a9ba 3layhh..

3gb shwy y3t w kan fe y7 fl thalaja fa ga9aytle shy w wkalt.. i felt bad fa 76aytla shwy in a plate w 76ayta 3al 6awwlaa

Fahad: tslaam yadch :D

I ignored.. ALLAH YSALMKKK  i wanted to stay that bs kept quite

Then he started rocking 3al chaiirr so muchh that he hit his head 3al tablee.. It was so hard so i was so scareed.. i ran to the kitchen w got ice shwy w 76ayta 3ala rasahh...

Fahad: ha al7in i exist

I ignored him w still kept the ice on his head

Fahad: a7 a7 baridd bs mabii

w 7a6 yadah on my hand ybe ysheel el ice.. i held tight w 5layta 7g a couple of minutes then shltah..

Fahad: 7taa wntyy z3lana u care about me.. allahhhh. bs bs bgoulchh..

Me: 9IJJ :D yalla goul

Fahad: la bs mabi

me: FAHAD

Fahad: okai okai, min eli kalmch 3nd fudz

I stood up w 76ayt yadi 3la my face, "A7iin yal 7marr min 9ijjkkk 5laytnii ma aklmkk the whole time l2na mankt tbe ts2lnii hal so2al?! entaa shnww '3abyy! mu 9a77yyyy muu 9a7yyy. Ybeeelk kaaf 3la wyhkkk"

Fahad: HAHAHAHAHA

Me: shfeeek b3adddd

Fahad: tdreen 7adch cute lma t3a9been

Me: est7aayt shwyyyy then tethakart eni m3a9ba 3layhh lat'3ayrr el salfa okaii.. hay wa7d ygrable min b3eed.. kla ysoulf dm's f twitter w i dont know him 3adl.. w awal mara achofa in real life as in mu bs twitter pics w halon..

Fahad: ahaa okaii :D

Rdayna tsaba7na shwyy & then back in.. he changed his wet shirt w i stayed.. "Bdlay latmr'6een".. i said, "Magdr aro7 foug brdana".. mawi3ayt ela he stood up, went & got me a shirt, threw it 3alay w gale wear it.. It was a red shirt w looked unisex..

Me: mm.. fahad male bar'6 arou7 el 7amam mmkn tfrr wyhk shwy :D

He did as i told him w i changed..

Fahad: 7lww 3laichh

Me: hehe 5ala9 y3ni a5tha 7agy?

Fahad: 7lalch yuba

AAA55 athooooob ana athooooob

Minutes later ela ana 7a6a rasy w lafa rou7i b blanket w  uhwa the samee & we slept for a bit.. till 5-am ish.. We then decided for a walk on the beach.. Al3noud was wearing a tanktop & shorts, since no one was up this early it was okaay..

5athna lafa w rdayna.. "Abarou7 el parkk" i said.. "Laa matrou7en" achoof fahad gayeli..

Ana mu mt3awda a7ad egouli la2 bdoun sibab.. atnarfaz.. ya5i if u dont have a reason for what urr saying, dont say it. Simple as that..

Fahad: bs ana glt matro7en y3ni matro7en

Me: chouf enta matabe matrou7 ana barou7 kayfe

w off i went.. dash wya al3noud then i notice someone yamii..

He walked besides me w magal a word.. until i accidently brushed my hand next to his.. He stopped & stared at me in the eyes for a couple of minutes...